Masalah

Assalamualaikum

It's been so long since my last update idk when hahahaha but who cares ? No one read my entry or even visit my blog recently don't you ? Just talking to myself , ignore me forever . Well , I am pretty busy before this because of my PT3 examination that took over 3 days with 6 papers that combined everything that I learn for 3 years . What a game of life tho! But guess what , everything is over now and I'm still not at my freedom years because next week , I have school project . Again and again , my life is pretty busy with thinking for what preparationthat I should prepare in this few days .

So that is not what I'm going to talk about . It is about my permohonan untuk masuk MRSM . Well , I was suprised that I didn't get any support from my family since when idk . Why ? Because back in the years ago , whole of my family always said " hantar adik ni pergi asrama biar berdikari sikit , malas je asyiknya tengok tv , makan , tidur sampaikan basuh pinggan pun malas " . I was totally hate asrama back in few years ago sebab tengok my sister masuk asrama macam lifeless sangat and miserable with works , basuh baju , study and everything . But since this year , I was automatically change 360 degree almost hahahhaha . I mean it is possible be at 365 degree ? The other 1 degree is missing somewhere and I try to find it until now .

Seriously , what is going on in this earth ? People around me are forcing me to go to asrama back in the few years ago but now what happend ? Itulah orang kata , setiap perkataan yang keluar dari mulut kita adalah doa . See , now I am totally want to go to asrama but hahahha too many alasan keluar dari mulut orang sekeliling aku even my parents pun sama . 

" duduk rumah jela jaga ibu ayah tu "

" susah masuk mrsm tu , kalau kamu drop terus kena halau keluar "

" kalau dah masuk jangan mintak keluar dah "

" kamu tu gedik , karang kena buli je dengan senior nanti "

" mrsm tu untuk budak pandai je , duduk jela sekolah harian tu "

Terlalu banyak alasan sampai aku pun kadang-kadang down nak mati sampai nak nangis keluar biji mata tapi tak jadi . Tapi aku ni seorang yang degil , oh tidak TERSANGAT DEGIL ahahahaha . I'm done daftar masuk mrsm , in a few weeks later I will sit for Ujian Kecenderungan Kemasukan Murid or UKKM for MRSM . I decided take my UKKM dekat MRSM Parit, Perak sebab dekat sikit dengan rumah walaupun masih jauh sebenarnya . But takpelah semua kawan ambil ujian dekat situ , alhamdulillah boleh tahan lah jugak nanti kan . So since I desperately want to register nak masuk mrsm , my parents just follow je sebab nanti aku menangis lagi hahahaha . Secret weapon dooo ! but only for anak manja like me k bye .

Sejak dah daftar masuk mrsm ni , mulalah hmm kalau malas sikit terus kena drop dengan parents itu ini bla bla bla bla sampaikan aku pun rasa nak down balik tapi masih tough and senyum tapi dalam hati " u wait , oneday ill show u the real me "  fulamak kau macam movie pun ada hahaha . Tapi itulah , tekadnya aku nak masuk asrama sebab orang asyik panggil aku ni anak manja , tak pandai berdikari , banyak songgeh , gedik , cerewet and more more more . Now , it is time for you show to all of my family , cousin , makcik pakcik tok nenek segala sepupu-papat semua yang aku boleh hidup sendiri . Biasalah sebulan dua tu menangis nak balik but I challenge myself untuk tidak mengalah bagi buktikan kepada semua that I am not manja .

Seriously , aku tekad sangat sangat hidup dekat dunia yang penuh dengan cemuhan orang yang riak bagus ni . Biar aku duduk asrama tu nanti jadi lonely lepastu lama lama tough juga . I wonder how my life would be without my parents nanti bila masuk asrama . Doa-doakanlah dapat roomate and homeroom yang sporting and caring tak ganas and cheerful always . So , until here only my dear lonely life . Till we meet again . So idk whether there is visitor or not but thankyou for read this entry . Just a few words before I end this entry .

" Never ever give up in life even people hates you so much . A better life will come to you , just be patient  "

Thankyou and Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)